Leven in het hier en nu Verschillende lagen van nu Als mensen aan mij vragen: ‘Hoe gaat het met je?’, zeg ik vaak dat ik daar tig verschillende antwoorden op kan geven. Ik kan het heel klein houden of ik kan er meer context aan geven. Wat voel ik werkelijk in het hier en nu? ‘Op dit moment geniet ik van de zon die schijnt’ Besef van tijd in de zin van welke dag is het in de week? ‘Het is vandaag vrijdag, bijna weekend en daar heb ik zin in’ Besef van het seizoen en voorbereiden daarop: ‘De zomer komt eraan en ik ben plannen aan het maken’ Besef van realiteit in de maatschappij: ‘ik maak me zorgen over alle angst die kinderen geprojecteerd krijgen op school’ Besef van de mens met hoger bewustzijn: ‘Ik voel me uit evenwicht, voel een zware energie in deze ruimte.’ Besef van het verleden: ‘gister had ik een drukke dag, ik moet er nog van bijkomen.’ ‘Ik denk veel terug aan de tijd dat mijn kinderen nog klein waren.’
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Ik ben geboren in 1982 in een Rooms-Katholiek nest. Dat hield in dat ik ben gedoopt, communie en vormsel heb gedaan en als kind zo nu en dan op zondag naar de kerk ging. Ik herinner me ook broodmaaltijden tijdens de vastenperiode en ik heb weleens een blauwe maandag gezongen in het kerkkoor. Ik ging naar een Katholieke basisschool, waar vrij veel aandacht werd besteed aan de aanloop naar de communie en het vormsel toe. De kerk had een vrouwelijke pastor, pastor Starmans, een warme, hartelijke en open-minded vrouw in een ‘mannenwereld’. Ik vond het vooral wel gezellig met de andere kinderen uit mijn klas die hetzelfde pad liepen, verder brachten de verhalen en de kennis over de bijbel mij niet zoveel. Ik werd er niet door geraakt of door geïnspireerd.
Nu ik terugkijk herinner ik me vooral de momenten dat mijn vader ’s avonds mij naar bed bracht en ontspanningsoefeningen met mij deed.
En de momenten dat ik helderziende enge nachtmerries had en ik hierin serieus werd genomen. Voor mij toen heel vanzelfsprekend, achteraf zie ik dat hierin al een hele andere beweging zat.
Pas rond mijn 16e, toen ik met fysieke klachten bij een vrouw kwam met helderziende gaven, die mij in balans bracht, waardoor mijn klachten binnen een dag verdwenen werd er iets in mij wakker. Ik begon te ontdekken dat wat ik van binnen al wel voelde vorm kreeg en woorden, ik ging veel boeken lezen (de Alchemist, de Celestijnse belofte, Avelon) en bezocht zieners, healers en sprekers (Hans Stolp).
Ondertussen voelde de kerk al heel ver weg en ook mijn ouders gingen nauwelijks meer. Mijn vader gaf mij de inwijding voor Reiki 1 en Reiki 2. Magisch vond ik het, mijn energie te voelen en die van anderen. Ik werd gelijk enorm uitgedaagd, ontwikkelde migraine en moest noodgedwongen regelmatig thuisblijven, terwijl de wereld buiten lonkte.
Het was alsof ik aan de ene kant instapte in de sneltrein van het leven gevuld met studie, verliefdheden, jacht op adrenaline, erbij horen, buitenkant en aan de andere kant dwong de migraine mij om naar binnen te keren, stil te staan en voelde ik een grote behoefte aan diepgang, mystiek en spirituele ervaringen. Ik probeerde deze twee werelden te verenigen en stuitte nogal eens op weerstand, wat me een eenzaam gevoel gaf.
Thuis kon ik mijn verhalen, mijn spirituele zoektocht wel kwijt. Ik ging met mijn ouders naar verschillende lezingen en healers. De andere kant van mijn leven hield ik stil. Daar ging ik nogal eens op mijn bek. Verkeerde vriendjes, verkeerde keuzes, te vaak mijn grenzen over. Ik was ook nogal een portret en ging vaak in het drama, achteraf gezien vooral als test in hoeverre mijn vriendje een veilige stevige haven kon vormen.
Toen ik 22 was ontmoette ik R. Hij was de eerste die zich niet liet meevoeren met mijn ups en downs. Ik was gefascineerd en ook regelmatig hoogst geïrriteerd. We ontmoeten elkaar in een zelfde soort honger naar betekenis, diepte en spiritueel inzicht. Op het aardse vlak was hij al in rustiger vaarwater met een leeftijdsverschil van 8 jaar.
Samen vervolgden we de zoektocht. Ik in een cursus numerologie en tarot en hij in aikido, shiatsu en we lazen allebei veel boeken, bezochten lezingen van Hans Stolp.
Toen ik 25 was werd onze eerste zoon geboren, middels allerlei medische handelingen die ik met de kennis van nu niet had laten gebeuren. Het gevolg was dat hij onrustig was en ik met hem naar een energetisch therapeute ging. Deze vrouw bleek een real life safer en nadat ze entiteiten terug naar het licht had gebracht sliep hij die avond voor het eerst rustig in zijn eigen kamer door.
In 2012 kwamen we in een bewustzijn stroomversnelling. We hebben allebei een aantal Ayahuasca reizen gemaakt, wat zich qua ervaring moeilijk laat omschrijven. Ik zal toch een poging doen. Het was de ontmoeting met mijn ware zelf, mijn hogere zelf. Ik kon als het ware tappen uit al mijn waardevolle herinneringen vanaf de oorsprong. Dat bracht me in een staat van helder weten, helder voelen, helder zien. Alles werd begrijpelijk, ik werd opnieuw onderwezen en kreeg lessen over mijn leven nu. Het vroeg om overgave, controle loslaten, vertrouwen en een dosis lef.
Het belangrijkste komt na de reis en dat is het integreren in het leven zelf. Samen zochten en zoeken we hierin onze weg. Wat voor ouders zijn wij voor onze kinderen?
Hoe ziet onze relatie eruit, hoe ondersteunen en inspireren we elkaar en hoe vrij en autonoom laten we elkaar?
Ik ga dit verderop duiden aan de hand van logion 114 
De Ayahuasca laat een diepe indruk achter en R voelt zo’n verbondenheid dat hij de thee zelf thuis brouwt. Een bijzondere reis samen met mijn vader volgt en we begeleiden samen een stel. Nou is het in deze ook belangrijk het ademwerk te noemen. Eenmaal, middels de Ayahuasca, de plek ervaren te hebben van innerlijke rust en verbondenheid is het makkelijker om daar later ook zonder plantmedicijn naar toe te bewegen.
Ademwerk is een reis opzich. Ik merk dat ik makkelijker bij mijn emoties kom, vooral boosheid en verdriet.
Tijdens mijn werk in het Erasmusmc-Sophia tussen 2009 en 2017 heb ik altijd het gevoel gehad dat ik meerdere taken had. Aan de ene kant mijn werk als medisch maatschappelijk werker en het begeleiden van ouders met een ernstig ziek kind, anderzijds het begeleiden van overleden zieltjes naar het licht. Ik leerde in elk geval te onderscheiden welke energie van mij was en welke van ‘anderen’. Ik wist ook dat ik vanzelf zou voelen wanneer mijn werk daar klaar was, het losmaken hiervan viel me zwaar en het heeft een poos geduurd dat ik niet meer droomde over het Sophia.
Ik leer een vrouw kennen waar ik een intense periode mee beleef. Ik ervaar een zielsverbinding, voor het eerst met een andere vrouw. Ik word uitgedaagd in aanwezig zijn, contact maken, groter durven dromen, gaan staan, me uitspreken, echt zijn, niks verhullen.  Samen organiseren we een San Pedro weekend, daaraan voorafgaand ervaar ik zelf dit plantmedicijn tijdens een weekend samen. Ik ervaar hoe het is om vrij, zonder remmingen, te praten, te bewegen, mijn intuïtie te volgen no matter what.
Totdat de tijd aanbreekt dat ik voel dat ik dit contact wil loslaten.
De C. Periode breekt aan en vraagt van mij een wakker worden van weer een geheel ander kaliber. Ik heb het gevoel dat al het voorgaande wat ik in het kort beschreven heb een voorbereiding was op wat ik in het hier en nu ervaar. Ik word uitgedaagd om al mijn overgebleven, hardnekkige overtuigingen onder de loep te nemen en los te laten. Ik heb dit pad alleen te bewandelen, ik kom los te staan van vrienden en familie en ervaar een diep gevoel van onrecht, verdriet, boosheid en tegelijk ook vertrouwen. Ik heb het gevoel dat ik werkelijk Leef en mijn antennes staan op scherp.
Ik schep ruimte voor nieuwe inzichten, verruimd bewustzijn qua denken en voelen. Het knettert zo nu en dan in mij en ook tussen mij en R. Alles krijg ik direct terug gespiegeld door hem, precies dat waar ik altijd al naar zocht in mijn jongere jaren. Ik duik een stuk Indische familiegeschiedenis in en ervaar een heling in het systeem. Alsof ik toegang krijg tot een nieuwe bron van informatie en een nieuwe manier om deze te verwerven, namelijk middels intuïtief schrijven. Ik voel me ondersteund door mijn voorouders, ondanks dat ik tegen vele heilige huisje schop en dat me niet in dank wordt genomen door mijn ouders.
Ik voel dat ik tegen mijn grenzen aan scheur, tenminste mijn overtuiging van mijn grenzen. Ik wil erdoorheen breken, ik moet erdoorheen breken, het is tijd. Voorbij de angst, onzekerheid, mezelf klein houden, voorbij het idee dat ik dingen niet kan begrijpen, niet kan vatten. Voorbij het niet doorpakken, niet kiezen en blijven fladderen.
Geen gemakkelijke opgave en zeker niet in de context van de realiteit waarin we leven, maar daarom ook juist nu. Gedreven door een behoefte om mezelf voor eens en voor altijd te bevrijden, te vinden wie ik ben en wat ik te doen heb. Met elkaar als spiegel, partner, leraar. Waar het mannelijke en het vrouwelijke samenkomen, de twee 1 maken.
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[vc_row padding_top="" padding_bottom="0"][vc_column css=".vc_custom_1593330923825{border-right-width: 1px !important;border-right-color: #eeee22 !important;border-right-style: solid !important;}"][vc_custom_heading text="Thomas Evangelie - Logia en analogie" font_container="tag:h2|font_size:45|text_align:left|color:%23d7cce8" google_fonts="font_family:Pinyon%20Script%3Aregular|font_style:400%20regular%3A400%3Anormal"][vc_column_text] Wat biedt het me? Mijn wederhelft R werd jaren geleden gegrepen door het Thomas Evangelie. Hij benoemde het tot het belangrijkste boek m.b.t. spiritualiteit. Hij vertaalde zelfs het hele boek naar het Engels, omdat het boek een internationale plaats verdient.  Is hij dan zo’n kerkganger? Zo iemand die het alleen maar over Jezus, het geloof en de bijbel kan hebben?  Nee, niks is minder waar. Hij noemt zelfs dat het in zijn geheel niet eens uitmaakt of Jezus nou wel of niet geleefd heeft. Nee, waar het om gaat zijn z’n lessen, universele lessen.  Op enig aandringen ben ik het zo’n 2 jaar geleden ook gaan lezen en ja, ook ik werd erdoor gegrepen. Maar zoals bij mij wel vaker het geval is, het bleef bij ‘interessant’.  Tot het nu, 2 jaar later, toch weer lonkt. Ok, ik zal eerlijk zijn, dankzij inspirerende en enigszins confronterende woorden van R.  Wat maakt dat ik over alles schrijf, deel en nadenk, behalve over het Evangelie van Thomas? Inmiddels heb ik geleerd dat als R me ergens op attendeert het vaak zinvol is er gehoor aan te geven, omdat ik weet dat hij dat niet doet om me iets op te dringen of zijn gelijk wil halen. Andersom geldt overigens hetzelfde.  Ik voel me vandaag wat in mezelf gekeerd, wat somber ook over de realiteit waarin we leven en hetgeen ons nog allemaal te wachten staat. De zon schijnt en normaal maakt dat me blij en outgoing. Nu zet het nog scherper neer in wat voor poppenkast we leven.  Dus er vormde zich een gedachte in mij, als ik nu eens het Evangelie van Thomas nogmaals ga lezen en dit keer ga ik bewust voelen wat het me biedt. Wat doet het met me? Wat heb ik eraan? Welke gedachte, welke lessen, welke uitleg geeft me moed en inspiratie? Ondertussen ga ik hier per logion over schrijven. Ik ben oprecht benieuwd waar deze levenslessen mij brengen, ik laat me meevoeren.  [/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row padding_top="0" padding_bottom=""][vc_column][/vc_column][/vc_row]

26 No love without openness to all that is

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Jesus said: You do see the splinter in the eye of your brother but you don't see the beam in your own eye. If you remove the beam from your own eye, then you will see clearly enough to remove the splinter from the eye of your brother.

You can look at a fellow man with eyes of love. They invite the other person to come out, to show themselves.

You can also look at a fellow human being with a judgmental look. Is that one of us? Does it behave according to our own norms and values? Has it adjusted properly?

Love is: allowing a fellow person to be different from yourself. If you are not prepared to do this, you cannot see the human being in the other, nor can there be charity.

Love can only flourish in total openness to all that is. Only someone who makes peace with himself, stops fighting himself, can achieve this openness. That means in the practice of life that one disarms oneself, puts down one's armor, and is prepared to be touched, also by pain and sorrow. In the free space that this openness creates, love will present itself as the ground of existence for itself and for other people.

We can experience a meeting with a fellow man on two different levels. The one level is that of the description of reality, within which all kinds of dogmas and rules tell how to behave in certain circumstances.

An example:

The Jewish and Palestinian women from Logion 5 are each other's enemies at the level of the description. But the grief of a Palestinian mother who loses a child in that struggle is the same as the grief of a Jewish mother who loses a child. That is the other level, that of the soul. Whoever chooses the level of the soul sees the human in the sorrow of both mothers. By daring to see that and putting it above the doctrine, you yourself become human.

Another example:

Children who have died without baptism should not be buried in sacred earth, as explained in the explanation to Logion 6. If you look at your fellow man with that norm in mind, then that judgment is the bar in your own eye.

You see that those fellow people have failed because they did not baptise their child. You supposedly see the splinter in the eye of your brother. But you don't see that it is a splinter from the bar in your own eye.

'See the human being' was said earlier in logion 5. Not the human being as he is according to the agreed images and norms, but the human being that you see if you dare to open the windows of your soul. If you can look at it that way, your soul will be moved by what you see. If you then act from that compassion, your actions will be an expression of true love.

At the level of the doctrine the Jewish and Palestinian women are each other's enemies, and according to the doctrine the baptised child may not be buried in sacred earth. But the two women and the pastor put the touch of their heart above all agreements. They then act as a human being towards a fellow human being.

They have removed the beam in their eye.

And as a result, that alleged splinter suddenly disappeared in the eye of the other.

58 Realized Insight

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Jesus said: Happy the person who suffered and found life

Happy the person who suffered? What should we do with that?

It must also have been a surprisingly strange statement for the Jewish contemporaries of Jesus, shockingly defamatory. Suffering was a punishment from Yahweh on sin, right? Hadn't Moses been clear about that? In the Deuteronomy Bible Book, he says that Yahweh rules life as a judge. Whoever follows him will be rewarded, whoever does not will be punished. And later Bible books are not unclear that all the calamities that strike the Jewish people time and time again are a justified punishment for disobeying Yahweh. Thus the prophet Ezekiel says on behalf of Yahweh:

I will not spare you nor pity you, but I will repay you for your walk, your abominations will come upon you, and you will know that I am the Lord.

And the prophet Hosea adds, also speaking on behalf of Yahweh:

Samaria has to pay because it has rebelled against his God. They will fall by the sword, their little children will be crushed, their pregnant women will be ripped open.

Jesus leaves this vengeful view and emphatically breaks [with] it. The New Testament tells that he mixes with lepers and other outcasts. With this he shows that nobody is excluded from the charity he calls for. Nobody, really nobody. Every person is a neighbour.

Jesus' answer to human suffering is not an accusing finger, but mercy without judgment. That is perhaps the most characteristic difference between Jesus and the Old Testament.

This logion fits in with Jesus' revolutionary new attitude towards suffering, and adds something to it. It shows that the willingness to accept suffering without judgment as part of life, makes you a whole person, "a living" in the symbolism of Gnosis.

In the previous logion we already talked about the illusion of enlightenment. You can form an image of what it is like to be enlightened and then rebuild yourself to fit into that image. Such an illusion about being enlightened can contain the idea that as an enlightened person you will no longer suffer, that you will then be above that. A release from suffering is not the commitment of gnostics. With that thought, with that idealised image of the enlightened, you place yourself outside your own wholeness as a person, outside of life, and, even more so, outside of Source.

Whoever wants to become a whole person, and as a whole person wants to coincide with Source, will have to embrace reality as a whole, with all the trimmings, without reservation.

This is called surrender. Surrender is unconditional.

Because, what is always at stake in the Thomas gospel is wholeness as a person. That wholeness cannot be achieved by amputating oneself in any way whatsoever. Not even by wanting to change reality.

Suffering is an inescapable part of being human. It is the other side of love. For example, we suffer for the loss of a loved one because we love our fellow human beings. Unconditional love can only exist in combination with the unconditional willingness to experience the pain that life sometimes inflicts on us.

Only that surrender will be able to bring man the deepest possible joy of life. If one wants that joy, one must also include suffering. Strangely enough, love and joy of life do not exclude suffering, but on the contrary. The three of them form the depth of reality.

That in order to become a whole person one should embrace reality as a whole is a point of view that often evokes protest. Because it is understood that everything should be okay. That is not at all what is meant here. That you should agree with everything is a mental judgment, not a surrender. Surrender also means letting go of that conception. Only then can you make reality appear to you as it is, in all its infinite diversity, without excluding anything from it.

Then you have found life. Then there is a willingness to be touched in the heart without conditions.

This unconditional willingness to be touched can very well result in a strong inner protest about a certain situation or course of action. You can also experience approval, for example in the form of a happiness experience. Protest and approval of the heart then form the inner guidelines for human action, and not the judgments imposed from outside. Such a protest or a consent from the heart is not a mental judgment. They are the result of emotional openness. Those experiences are the messengers of the soul, see Logion 65.

It's something you have to deal with, act upon. Those are the assignments that are handed to you by life itself.

In the Christian tradition, suffering has unfortunately fallen under the spell/charm of sin and martyrdom. The suffering of Christ in particular has become dominated by penance.

One can also read the story about the descent of Christ on earth with the willingness to accept suffering in a different way. Not as a historical reality, but as a meaningful myth. Then that story is also about the acceptance of suffering as part of reality. The otherwise so mysterious silence of Jesus in his condemnation to the death on the cross suddenly becomes very meaningful. That silence acquires the meaning of the unconditional surrender to life as a gateway to the resurrection from spiritual death.

61Self-image and the true self

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61a Jesus said: Two will rest on a bed; one will die, the other live.

61b Salome said: Human, who are you? You sat down on my couch and you eat from my table, as if you were representing someone.

Jesus told her: I come on behalf of an equal. I was given of what is my father’s.

Salome said: I'm your student/pupil.

Jesus said: That is why I say: Whoever is one will be full of light, but who is divided, will be full of darkness.

61a

In the previous logion, Jesus said "Find a place of rest for yourself." This logion is a continuation of this. What happens when you have found a place of rest for yourself?

At the place of rest the false self will die and the true self will wake up. The false self, that is the image that you have made of yourself and that you mistakenly think you are. You are not. The true self, that is your true personal identity that will emerge if you dare to let go of your false self.

So that is the opposite way of the previous logion. A Samaritan was on his way there to become a legalistic Jew. "Don't," Jesus said there. If you are already such a person, if for example you have been eaten by "a crowd" who paint you a self-image of you, you have to go back to becoming a human again. And you do that by seeking that inner place of rest and surrendering to it. There your false self dies, and you become a living, a true human being. The place of rest is the grave of the false self. Then there is the resurrection from spiritual death.

Listen to the story of Heinrich, a German child soldier, who is summoned in 1944 to help defend the homeland. When he arrives in the barracks, he not only receives a soldier's uniform as clothing, but his spirit is also uniformed. His spirit is also clothed in Gnostic terminology, but with ideas. He is told that he is an Aryan, a noble moon. He receives all sorts of enemy images from other people.

Heinrich believes all of that. He now therefore believes that he is an Aryan with a noble task of saving humanity from the Untermenschen. That image of himself as an Aryan-with-noble task is his false self. That self-image is part of the Nazi ideology. In the same way we all form an image of ourselves during our upbringing. And we think we are that image. When we say "I" we mean that image. Heinrich shares his false self as an Ariel with all other people who also think they are Arians. And the enemy images also apply to other people in groups. Such an image of yourself and others makes blind to the own unique self, but also to the self of the other. To overcome that blindness you need to let go of your false self-image. In the absence of the false self, the true self will present itself "naturally." This process requires that you create an inner "place of rest," a safe place in your consciousness. From there you can learn to see your own constructs about your identity and let them go. See also logion 54 about this.

Seeing your image constructs is the beginning of redemption.

61b

“(Wo)Man (human) who are you?" That the question is remarkable. Is asked by a woman named by her own name, Salome, just like Mary Magdalene in Logion 21. In most Logions, it is "the students" who ask the questions set. "The students" are never mentioned by name, except Peter in logion 114.

"The students" usually perform as a group the rhetorical function of the ignorant who ask the right questions to give Jesus the opportunity to give the enlightening answers. But that's different here.

It is remarkable first of all that Salome appeals to Jesus with "human." And then she asks "Who are you?"

To understand that question, we must go back to Heinrich's example given above. Heinrich thinks he's an Aryan. He will also introduce himself to his fellow men and they will see him that way, and he will certainly demand that of them. This not only affects himself, but also his fellow human beings are unaware of his true nature as a person. They only see his social mask. They do not see the human being in him. He's dehumanized.

Salomé addresses Jesus here with "human." She looks through the social mask of Jesus. She sees him as a "human son", a person without a mask. But who is he if he doesn't have a social mask? How can you know someone without a mask, without a social framework?

She also gives a preliminary answer:

It looks like you're coming on behalf of someone.

It seems to her as if Jesus is not himself, but as a kind of ambassador, he discards himself to speak on behalf of a superior, on behalf of God, for example, like the Old Testament prophets.

But Jesus makes it immediately clear that it is not like that. He says:

I come on behalf of an equal.

An equal! Prophets are not God, they are not God's equal. They are merely the mouthpiece of the divine. Jesus is not a mouthpiece. He is essentially like the divine. Salome now understands what Jesus means, and how special that is. She wants to be his student. But Jesus immediately warns her, just as he did with Thomas in Logion 13. If she would make a distinction between her and Jesus, if she thought that only Jesus was divine and she was not, she would be divided in that way. Because then she places her divine core outside herself. Then it will be divided into itself. As a result, she will create darkness over her own true self, just like Heinric By deifying Jesus and making himself unequal to him, she will die in a spiritual sense and become a corpse. If she relates to herself what she has seen in Jesus, then she too will be one with her true self, her own humanity. Then she too will be a living one. She too is here on earth on behalf of an equal. As a human being, as the unique human being Salome, and not as an unworthy woman, for example, she is one and the same as the Source. Just like Jesus. And then she takes to heart what Jesus says in Logion 108:

Whoever drinks the words from my mouth will become like me, and I will become like them.

2 Second Promise: You will be like a king

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Jesus said: Let he who searches continue searching until he finds and when he finds he will be shocked and being shocked he will wonder and he shall be king over the All. And as king he will regain his peace.

Gnostics is not a belief, we said in the explanation of the previous logion. But what then? Gnostics is a way. The Gnostics were called "the people of the road" in their time. You can also say that the gospel of Thomas and other Gnostic texts are a kind of travel description. The texts tell you, according to the gnostic Valentinus, where you come from and where you will go:

Whoever has gnosis, knows where he came from and where he will go. He knows, as someone who was drunk has become sober again, and, having come to himself, has put his affairs back in order. (Gospel of Truth 16)

In the previous logion you were told that you will not taste death if you find the meaning of the secret words. The Thomas gospel is also a kind of adventure novel about an exciting search for a hidden treasure. You will only be able to find this treasure if you continue to search diligently and not give up too quickly. Keep looking, this logion says. Also be prepared that you will be shocked when you find it. Being 'shocked' or 'stunned' (Greek: ekplèxis) by a story is a traditional, positive appreciation in Greek classical rhetoric of a good argument, for example of a Sofist defending a defendant before a court. Saying to the audience that they will be "shocked" is a way of claiming: listen, this is an argument that will provide, with the help of arguments, an insight that you did not have before, so that you will see that the facts of a case completely different than you originally thought. Moreover, it will be so natural with what you actually already knew that you will be surprised that it only now penetrates you. That of course also applies to the previous claim in Logion 1 that you will not taste death. You may have thought that eternal life is promised there after physical death, but no, that turned out to be meant differently. Now it is claimed that you will be like a sovereign prince sitting on your inner throne, ruling over the All, once you have found it. That is not wrong either. What does that mean now? The inner kingship is a common theme in the Western mystical tradition. The Roman Catholic Church Father Bishop Chrysostomos (347 - 407), for example, spoke about the "royal quality of the soul, which possesses itself". Thérésa van Avila speaks about "the throne in the inner palace".

It was also a general theme in classical antiquity, that royal quality of the soul. That quality was called with the word autonomy. That comes from the Greek words autos = self and nomos = law. A king used to be a legislator and judge. An autonomous person is therefore a king in the sense that he sets himself the law but also judges himself. A morally autonomous person is his own legislator and his own judge.

Whoever, as said here, will be like a king is therefore someone who judges himself, according to self-imposed laws.

In his book "The ascent of Mount Carmel" the mystic Juan de la Cruz (1542-1591) says:

There is no law for the righteous anymore because he is himself a law.

This autonomy was even seen as an important characteristic of Christians in early Christianity, and not only in Gnosticism! Bishop Chrysostom wrote:

Beloved, we have no power over your faith, and we do not command these things as your lord and master. We are appointed for the preaching of the word, not for power, not for absolute authority. We fulfill the function of advisers in the service of your own interest. The counselor gives his own opinion, and does not force the listener, but leaves this complete freedom of choice to what has been said. The counselor can only be blamed for not saying what was said to be said.

Chrysostom had the misfortune to be a contemporary of Augustine of Hippo, Saint Augustine in the Roman Catholic Church. He saw nothing in this liberty. By Augustine, Chrysostom was banned. Chrysostom died poor and lonely.

There are all kinds of good reasons to believe that the spiritual freedom confessed by Chrysostom was a characteristic of early Christianity, because it was precisely that freedom that offered the opportunity for charity. If we wanted to love our neighbour as ourselves, it requires a will decision. Such a decision can only be taken by a free person. However, Christianity later modeled itself on Augustine, with man as a sinful being, incapable of any good and inclined to all evil, as an unfree slave to his sinful nature. The Gnostics, the Christian freethinkers, were persecuted as heretics and finally, with the mass murder of the Cathars in the thirteenth century, removed from Western history. In the Thomas Gospel, the royal quality of the soul, that is, spiritual freedom, is seen as an essential aspect of the Gnostic path. But that freedom is not an end in itself. It is only a condition for something else, for something that really matters, namely the life practice of love.

Love and freedom as an inseparable couple

Because of that royal quality, it is surprising to know what the word Christ originally means. It is a Greek translation of the Hebrew word for "anointed one." With that word the kings were referred to in the Jewish tradition. They were an "anointed of the Lord." But that word was also used as an indication of the future Messiah the saviour of the Jewish people. That saviour of the Jewish people was supposed to be a king, so was the expectation, but then a worldly king. In Gnostics, "the Christ" lives in within a human itself. And that means not only that human are there own saviour, their own Messiah, but also that human are king over themselves.

So you can also read the word Christ nature as "the royal quality of the soul."

At the time the Thomas Gospel was written, the view that autonomy was the royal quality of the soul was a general theme in classical culture. This autonomy was seen as a natural quality of the human soul. What is Thomas saying here? If we go the way of gnostics, we will learn to connect on that path with that natural, universal human quality of the soul, the Christ nature, or the royal autonomy, the spiritual freedom.

And why would that be? Because then we can freely impose the law of love on ourselves. Just as the personal nature of human and the Christ nature form twins (see the prologue), freedom and love are also regarded as an inseparable couple in Gnosticism.

Love is not obediently following commandments.

Love is the moral touchstone of a free human.

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Combineer de 'Vecht'kunst met de Helende kunst

Aikido en Shiatsu

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After reading the letter it took several days to write an answer. There was an email and I had to send a digital answer. In short, it boiled down to my suggestion that instead of the proposed 10 days, I propose a 30-day period. I could provide shelter for the entire period without asking anything for it. I received a quick reply that Hira would like to come, but that the lockdown and flight stop did not allow that now and we agreed that we would travel to the Netherlands as soon as possible. And immediately something was not right for me. It was difficult to tell some stories about Sensei and visit some places. I also did not have the money to travel a lot. Time ... I am a Shiatsu therapist by profession and since the lockdown and the measures I have no work and the question is whether that will still return sufficiently. Rethinking the livelihood has become a daily activity, even a routine. Look, if I was honest with myself. …. (Look at what [you] is writing…. If…. How if…. Be honest with yourself!) well, I know…. I know deep down. It's his father. And talking alone is not going to "give" anything to him. A special trip? Yes…. but otherwise… .. And if I approached this young man in the same way that his father, Sensei, did me, well… then there is only one thing. And I can't even ask him. As if he has any idea what it is he is answering. Still, I have to explain it to him in a certain way. I was already very enthusiastic and started working. A 30-day program…. Starting point, I will let him experience everything I have learned from Sensei…. Wait…. Something is going wrong there .... Something is not right ... I am missing something ... but what? I look to my left at the bookcase. Middle top shelf. There it is. The Bible. What am I going to say about that? Can hardly say that he should read it…. ok…. let it rest for a while.

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